We're taking a road trip, taking a road trip.

We're taking a road trip, taking a road trip.
Going east to a suite with our name on and room service.

We didn't go for our anniversary since my mom was so sick. I need a change of scenery. I'll take my swim suit but if I don't go in, I don't care.
I need to get away.

We will see LOVE by Cirque de Soleil and enjoy Beatles songs.

Later!

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A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 107

By Amulbunny   

April 9, 2018

Outside my window… 79, clear and breezy

I am thinking…  So much left to do soon.

I am thankful for…      The vet the dog goes to

From the learning rooms …  I’m done teaching.

I can't believe . . .   We are actually going to Las Vegas

From the kitchen . . . I haven’t decided.

I am wearing…     my jammies with Scotties on them.

I am creating . . nothing exciting at the moment

I am going. . .  Paterno on HBO

I am reading. . . all kinds of books

I am hoping…  the med works for the dog

I am hearing…  Local weather.... It's hot!

Around the house… 1 dog, husband, son and television

One of my favorite things… Pot Roast

A few plans for the rest of the week…

1.  Get paperwork to Atty

2.  Find out about liquidating the investments

3.  Pray for rain

The very unhappy dog with the cone of shame sleeping on my pillow!

2nd Cardiology Appointment

It's been about a month since the AFIB started and his hospital stay. His sugars are still up and down, and though his doctor says he should be on meds, he steadfastly says no. His mom was a brittle type 1 as was his grandfather. I'll keep nudging him, but he's pretty firm on his low carb high protein meals. We'll see what is going on for sure.

1 good thing. A trip to Vegas to see the Cirque show Love is upcoming. A change of scenery. Nice hotel suite, relaxing view (I don't care if I see the mountains, though the airport would be better). All those evenings playing MyVegas.com on my tablet have paid off. And we're finally taking the KIA on a road trip.

This month I apply for social security and for Medicare. Keep getting all these things in the mail. Plus I have to do taxes; for me and for a kid. Argh.

When all is said and done, house sold and amounts distributed, we are, in September 2019 taking an Alaska cruise. My brother says why? "You'll just sit and read". I said. "But the scenery!"Oh well. It's on NCL and will be on what is now their newest ship the Bliss. I have something to look forward to. Me.Him. Kid 1, Kid 2, Bonus Kid. Gonna be fun. Unlimited drinks package and 3 specialty dining restaurants. Oh yeah.

Still missing my little dog. Big dog still has crap coming out from her paw after soaking. But she's not as wild as she was. I had to take the cone of shame collar off, she had basically destroyed it. Might have to get a soft collar for her.

No church Easter. Still not ready to go in and not see Mom.

I'm sitting here with my Lallybroch melt filling the room with the smell of a fireplace and whisky and peat. Like a well seasoned library with shelves and shelves of books.

Peace and out.

da bunny
whose shoulder hurts like an SOB today.

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 106

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 106

By Amulbunny   

March 20,2018

Outside my window… 61, raining

I am thinking…  No more procrastination

I am thankful for…      The husband is feeling better

From the learning rooms …  Don’t know if I’m up to it

I can't believe . . .       Mom’s been gone nearly 2 months

From the kitchen . . . Chinese Chicken Salad with Cutie slices

I am wearing…     Unusual Woman baseball shirt and jeans

I am creating . . Less than usual

I am going. . .  to watch the Weather Channel

I am reading. . . A Brief History of Time

I am hoping…  the dog’s foot is fixed

I am hearing…  Idiots gold panning and dredging in AK

Around the house… 1 dog, husband, son and girlfriend and me

One of my favorite things… Almond Poppyseed Costco Muffins

A few plans for the rest of the week…

1.  Get paperwork in gear

2.  Meet with Mom’s banker

3.  Enjoy the rain

Since the last episode of this life book this has happened:

My mom fell and went into rehab. They messed up her meds and caused her to have an ulcer. She went back into the hospital. She had 2 abdominal abscessed, her kidneys stopped working, and she declined to death. RIP Momma 12/1924-2/2018

My little Duffy developed kidney failure after a stroke and died. I miss him a lot. 

My husband spent 4 days in the hospital with AFIB and is now off 8 weeks to see cardiologists and diabetes specialists as well as the anti-coagulation clinic. 

I am not dealing. Selling the house, disposing of possessions, dealing with greedy non-relatives. Getting the estate settled.

The edge of the cliff

So we thought things were settling down.
Life throws curves again.

Sunday afternoon we had to call 911 for my husband whose heart went into AFIB. He was admitted to the hospital after 8 hours in the ER. He's still in Afib and his sugars are wild. He'll be in one more night. Then he's going to have to be off work while they get his heart meds regulated. We will be homeless unless we find some money ASAP. 

I am so nervous I can hardly comprehend things. Panic attacks are so fun. The dog is upset because no dad. The house is empty. 

Add to this I'm working on getting stuff out of my moms house, getting it ready to be sold. I don't know what I'm doing most of the time. 

Peace.

Saying Goodbye

Mom left us last Tuesday about 7AM. Very quietly. She did it on her terms. No drains, no dialysis. She had a chocolate drumstick the night before, a piece of pepperoni pizza and hugged her dog. We all talked to her and told her we loved her.

As of right now I am persona non grata with my brother because he did not appreciate my opinion of his church oh well. It's a free country, but I will not comment on him or his beliefs again.

Lots of things to do. The house has to be emptied and sold. We get a small percentage of that. There are house hold goods to remove. A couple of tables, her mattress and box spring, some dishes. I'm taking all the canned food to lutheran social services.

I hope this trust does not take forever. I want it done and over. I am waiting on her ashes and the death certificates to deal with.

Peace Mom, I'm going to miss you every day of the rest of my life.

And onto dialysis

My mother is still in the hospital. Admitted 4 Jan with massive and I mean massive GI bleed. They discovered an abdominal abscess which is still draining, she had a DVT filter installed which caused her kidneys to shut down due to the contrast agent they used. She is now having dialysis with no urine output. They have however taken almost 10L in fluid off.
I am fatigued beyond belief.

Don't have the energy to keep up with much these days. Too tired to care.

my little dog died

Sunday afternoon. He'd been sick about 5 days. Kidney failure. He was with me till the end. We were all there, one on Facetime, the other 2 next to the bed. He's being cremated and will come home soon. I am bereft.

My mom is in very serious condition.

Everything is making me cry.

Goodbye Duffy, Mommy loved you so much. 

Don't let anyone tell you it's easy

Please don't let anyone tell you having a parent in a SNF is easy. My mom fell down and was discharged from the hospital into one. They were great for PT/OT, but the ratio of staff/patients sucked and they were not cautious about medicine, and they diapered people instead of getting them out of bed to go to the rest room. Laziness. Due to this perfect storm, She ended up with a massive GI bleed, A-Fib and has been in a PCU, back in the hospital. She has been cardioverted to have her heartbeat back to a normal rhythm, had a PIC line inserted, had massive black BM's due to the blood in the intestine.

Today she's having a white blood cell scan:

"A Nuclear Medicine WBC Scan is performed using a special radioactive material which is tagged to your white blood cells that, when injected into the body, is attached to sites of inflammation. Once distributed in these areas, the inflammation (infection) can be seen. "

"The blood tagging process is an all day exam, requiring you to return for several scans at the Nuclear Medicine Department. After the injection, you will need to return to the Nuclear Medicine Department four (4) hours later for the first picture. Once the actual scan is started it takes 60 - 90 minutes to complete depending on the area of your body being examined. White blood cells collect in infection areas very slowly. For this reason, it is necessary to repeat the scan portion of the exam again at five (5) hours and eight (8) hours after the initial injection so that several pictures can be studied. When you return to the Nuclear Medicine Department for delayed pictures it will take 60 - 90 minutes to complete the picture. However, the tagged white blood cell injection is only given on the initial visit."

I've been spending hours and hours sitting in uncomfortable chairs, have read 2 large romance novels on my Kindle. Watched football games with the sound off. And I'm tired beyond measure, pissed off beyond counting, and I wanted to share some of that with y'all. 

the exhausted bunny with a migraine.