todays the day

I see the Boy Wonder and he writes me the report that says my shoulder is at a place where it is at it's medical maximum. Meaning, orthopedically he can do no more. So why not refer me to a neurologist who can figure out what nerves is sparking all the pain? I am already pissed off at his office. This has cost me money, our home, and so many other things.



There was a rape at my daughters' college this week. This is the 2nd one in 5 months. It always was a safe but scary campus at night. Didn't seem like there were enough lights on the walkways. This happened at the women's gym. Thank God she doesn't have a night class but this last attack happened at 1715, still daylight.



Need to find some efax information. This computer used to have a fax system but I never figured it out. I'll have the computer geek kid try and get me one that will work.


More later.

todays the day

I see the Boy Wonder and he writes me the report that says my shoulder is at a place where it is at it's medical maximum. Meaning, orthopedically he can do no more. So why not refer me to a neurologist who can figure out what nerves is sparking all the pain? I am already pissed off at his office. This has cost me money, our home, and so many other things.



There was a rape at my daughters' college this week. This is the 2nd one in 5 months. It always was a safe but scary campus at night. Didn't seem like there were enough lights on the walkways. This happened at the women's gym. Thank God she doesn't have a night class but this last attack happened at 1715, still daylight.



Need to find some efax information. This computer used to have a fax system but I never figured it out. I'll have the computer geek kid try and get me one that will work.

Ah joy

Actually had a nice weekend. Went to church and yesterday I did a tritip and it turned out amazing. Everyone enjoyed it. Cooked it for an hour at 425º and then let it sit covered for 20 minutes. Sliced it up and made fresh guac, chopped maters, a new chipoltle salsa, and had quesadillas with frijoles and cheese. We actually had a family meal and spent it watching Deadliest Catch.

I really enjoy that show, and now that Bones and House are off, it's okay with me.

Tomorrow I get to see the ortho and get my Maximum Medical Improvement exam. Whopee. I am also going to talk to him about the fact that things weren't done on time causing me 4 months of pay, getting evicted and now finding out that my husband's contract ends Friday. I am not going to let myself freak out. He's been contacted by some other companies but who knows how long that will last. We don't have money for a first and last and houses are hard to find. If I had money I'd get a lawyer and sue the bastard for not doing the paperwork in a timely manner and causing me all this distress.

What is next?

Gonna move. Have no choice. Have no money. Haven't had a check since March.
Doctor's office lost paperwork I faxed to them in March. Finally got it and got it turned into the person who told me if I didn't get in they would make my absences AWOL and probably fire me. Appealing to the DOL with new medical information. Would be nice to get some therapy and some help for this big huge knot under my scapula.

Actually took the paperwork in person to the office. Saw one of my old friends from my last position. I don't think I miss it anymore. I could do it but they won't have me back. I did notice that my white board is still up with my cheat numbers written on it. I think they are trying to make everyone in the office a minority. At least that what it seems. Oh well.

Then I took the shuttle to the airport and went to where I had been sending some of my paperwork and found out they don't get it anymore. Went through security and even took off my shoes. I gave the admin person my time off note as well as my new doctor's note. Then out to wait for the bus, whoo hoo. It seemed like every airport bus came except the one I needed. By the time I got it, I was half frozen, then waiting on the train, and it was so cold and raining. Finally the local bus came and I got on it and got off at my stop and walked 2 blocks in the rain. I was so cold when I got home. Brrrr. No umbrella either. Duh.

So life goes on. We've got to find a new place to live, hopefully flat with a decent garage and driveway and room for my dog.

I saw my PCP and got some meds changed. Got a different SSRI but it's generic and I can get it through the mail. Need to see if I can get my HCTZ that way too. I'm trying to avoid taking a bunch of meds. Costs too damn much with copays. I am still dealing with all that is going on.

So well, here it goes. Have a safe weekend. I'm watching the race tomorrow and reading.

What is with this cat?

She decided that my computer chair is where she wants to be. So I get to sit here perched like a kid on a cliff, sitting upright, instead of bracing my back into the back of the chair. I could sit on her but that wouldn't be very nice would it?

No news today. Tomorrow we hope.

Cousin who had accident is back in hospital. Not good. Need to contact his sister and see if she knows what is going on. Wife is a flake.

Wish I could drape said cat around my neck and shoulders to warm it up. I'll just get the heating pad, watch Bones and House ( too bad Hugh Laurie is so married and so Presbyterian) and then sleep.

Tomorrow big night out to dinner with M&P, for their anniversary and for the 19th birthday of my baby. Who went out and applied for JOBS!!! today. Thank you Jesus.

Life is one day at a time. These lyrics put it in perspective:
When I die and they lay me to rest
Gonna go to the place that's the best
When I lay me down to die
Goin' up to the spirit in the sky
Goin' up to the spirit in the sky
That's where I'm gonna go when I die
When I die and they lay me to rest
Gonna go to the place that's the best

Prepare yourself you know it's a must
Gotta have a friend in Jesus
So you know that when you die
He's gonna recommend you
To the spirit in the sky
Gonna recommend you
To the spirit in the sky
That's where you're gonna go when you die
When you die and they lay you to rest
You're gonna go to the place that's the best

Never been a sinner I never sinned
I got a friend in Jesus
So you know that when I die
He's gonna set me up with
The spirit in the sky
Oh set me up with the spirit in the sky
That's where I'm gonna go when I die
When I die and they lay me to rest
I'm gonna go to the place that's the best
Go to the place that's the best

I want that played when I exit this galactic plane; cool huh?

Night all.

Another week starts

My mothers day dinner was der weinerschnitzel chili cheese dogs with onions. And a glass of wine.
I talk with an attorney tomorrow.
I see my PCP on Tuesday, then I contact the ortho office.
It will be an interesting week.
Life is too damn short to be going through this mess.

short and sweet

hospitals are not places to rest and recover
if I tell you the veins aren't good on that arm, listen to me, I know of which I speak
if the front office doesn't speak to the back office and your negligence cost me over $3000 in lost pay, I will hire an attorney and sue your asses
where's that fucking money tree? I need it's fruit now. I don't even have cheese for grilled cheese.
i got an eticket ride in an ambulance and had nuclear isotopes injected into my body. wonder if i glowed?
i am about ready to throttle people and soon.

Where's that peace of mind I need?

MayDay MayDay MayDay

Yesterday I spent the morning writing letters to my doctors, the agency I hate and a senator's minion who is a liaison to the agency that I hate. And I called the doctor's office. I didn't expect to hear from the agency that I hate but you would think the doctor's office would have the courtesy to call. As of now, nope. I am very discouraged. Not to mention totally broke and I have no idea how I will pay my rent, utilities or buy food this month. Pretty sad isn't it?

And of course there is the Princess' birthday this week. She turns 19. God time has flown by. I sometimes think both kids childhoods passed in a blur because of the mental illness of their dad. Now I have to try and remember the fun things. There were good camping trips and trips to visit family. There was the comet trip which I don't think I'll ever forget. But there was the Amway debacle, the addictions, the 12 steps. Amazing we made it out alive.

Spaghetti for dinner tonight. The sauce is made. The husband does the noodles and the garlic bread. Smells good as it comes up the stairs.

Dogs and cats are driving me nuts barking outside. Big dog spent most of the night outside. He did pretty good, he likes to patrol. He'll be out there tonight too. Little dog needs a bath, guess he will get that tonight.

Oh and the PTB changed my schedule without notifying me. When I called in as I am to do daily, except on my Regular Days Off, I was told, oh yeah, you are now M-F from 0800-1630. Thanks for telling me. And when I sent an email to HR asking about it, it was ignored. Story of my life. Boy if I could take the last 6 years back and do over, things would be different.

Before I end I want to say that I am thankful for my friend who lives in Denver. She is my hero. I am also thankful for the friend in Michigan who just had a double mastectomy and started chemo this week. I pray for her every day. As I do my other friends. But these 2 are singled out this week.
Bless them Lord and keep them in your hands.

That's it for now.