Saying Goodbye

Mom left us last Tuesday about 7AM. Very quietly. She did it on her terms. No drains, no dialysis. She had a chocolate drumstick the night before, a piece of pepperoni pizza and hugged her dog. We all talked to her and told her we loved her.

As of right now I am persona non grata with my brother because he did not appreciate my opinion of his church oh well. It's a free country, but I will not comment on him or his beliefs again.

Lots of things to do. The house has to be emptied and sold. We get a small percentage of that. There are house hold goods to remove. A couple of tables, her mattress and box spring, some dishes. I'm taking all the canned food to lutheran social services.

I hope this trust does not take forever. I want it done and over. I am waiting on her ashes and the death certificates to deal with.

Peace Mom, I'm going to miss you every day of the rest of my life.

And onto dialysis

My mother is still in the hospital. Admitted 4 Jan with massive and I mean massive GI bleed. They discovered an abdominal abscess which is still draining, she had a DVT filter installed which caused her kidneys to shut down due to the contrast agent they used. She is now having dialysis with no urine output. They have however taken almost 10L in fluid off.
I am fatigued beyond belief.

Don't have the energy to keep up with much these days. Too tired to care.

my little dog died

Sunday afternoon. He'd been sick about 5 days. Kidney failure. He was with me till the end. We were all there, one on Facetime, the other 2 next to the bed. He's being cremated and will come home soon. I am bereft.

My mom is in very serious condition.

Everything is making me cry.

Goodbye Duffy, Mommy loved you so much. 

Don't let anyone tell you it's easy

Please don't let anyone tell you having a parent in a SNF is easy. My mom fell down and was discharged from the hospital into one. They were great for PT/OT, but the ratio of staff/patients sucked and they were not cautious about medicine, and they diapered people instead of getting them out of bed to go to the rest room. Laziness. Due to this perfect storm, She ended up with a massive GI bleed, A-Fib and has been in a PCU, back in the hospital. She has been cardioverted to have her heartbeat back to a normal rhythm, had a PIC line inserted, had massive black BM's due to the blood in the intestine.

Today she's having a white blood cell scan:

"A Nuclear Medicine WBC Scan is performed using a special radioactive material which is tagged to your white blood cells that, when injected into the body, is attached to sites of inflammation. Once distributed in these areas, the inflammation (infection) can be seen. "

"The blood tagging process is an all day exam, requiring you to return for several scans at the Nuclear Medicine Department. After the injection, you will need to return to the Nuclear Medicine Department four (4) hours later for the first picture. Once the actual scan is started it takes 60 - 90 minutes to complete depending on the area of your body being examined. White blood cells collect in infection areas very slowly. For this reason, it is necessary to repeat the scan portion of the exam again at five (5) hours and eight (8) hours after the initial injection so that several pictures can be studied. When you return to the Nuclear Medicine Department for delayed pictures it will take 60 - 90 minutes to complete the picture. However, the tagged white blood cell injection is only given on the initial visit."

I've been spending hours and hours sitting in uncomfortable chairs, have read 2 large romance novels on my Kindle. Watched football games with the sound off. And I'm tired beyond measure, pissed off beyond counting, and I wanted to share some of that with y'all. 

the exhausted bunny with a migraine. 

2018

Not too much to say right now except

Happy
New 
Year 
in
2018.

Let's hope for good news this year and eyes that are open!

Peace.

da bunny

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A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 105

By Amulbunny   

December 5, 2017

Outside my window… 70, smoky and dry (7% humidity)

I am thinking…  Coughing, tired and worn out

I am thankful for…      Getting the kid her ticket home

From the learning rooms …  How hard is it to tell the teacher you won’t be there?

I can't believe . . .       how horrible the fires are

From the kitchen . . . chili cheese dogs

I am wearing…     V Neck tee shirt, jeans, skechers

I am creating . . .  Not much, I want to sleep.

I am going. . .  to watch the live coverage of the fires

I am reading. . . Seven Stones to Stand or Fall

I am hoping…  the heater can be fixed

I am hearing…  KNBC 4 and sad news

Around the house… 2 dogs, boy playing video games and me

One of my favorite things… Pfeffernuese

A few plans for the rest of the week…

1.  Drive to Laguna Niguel tomorrow

2.  Waiting for the season finale of Outlander

3.  Cuddle with the dogs

Here is a picture for thought, which I am sharing:

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 104

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 104

By Amulbunny   

November 7, 2017

Outside my window… 70, partly cloudy and calm

I am thinking…            Sad, aching, cold

I am thankful for…      Kid #1 getting a job

From the learning rooms …  If you don’t come, you won’t learn

I can't believe . . .       another mass shooting

From the kitchen . . . surprise from kids outing

I am wearing…     slouch tee shirt, jeans and loafers

I am creating . . . Trying to write midterm for class

I am going. . .  make a cup of tea later and binge watch Black Sails

I am reading. . . Seven Stones to Stand or Fall

I am hoping…  for a quiet week

I am hearing…  Airplane drone, and dogs snoring

Around the house… 2 dogs and me

One of my favorite things… Organ Music

A few plans for the rest of the week…

1.  Wait and see if the students fail the assignment

2.  Watch A. Malcolm again and again and again

3.  Be thankful for the cooler weather

Here is a picture for thought I am sharing:

Weather induced head cold

Woke up this morning feeling like crap. 

This weather has caught up with me. The heat wore me out and my sinuses are miserable. 

I called my boss and I said there is no way I can teach tonight, and I'll notify all my students. 

I texted the ones I could and emailed the other. So I did my Due Diligence. 

I am so tired. Just feeling worn out today. 

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 103

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 103

By Amulbunny   

October 22,2017

Outside my window… 81, sunny and windy

I am thinking…  Achy, tired and sore

I am thankful for…  food in the house

From the learning rooms …  I learn more every day

I can't believe . . .  we still have rats  

From the kitchen . . . maybe soup and a sandwich

I am wearing…  Tee shirt and shorts

I am creating . .  . Nothing today

I am going. . .  to go to bed early

I am reading. . . A Janet Daily trilogy

I am hoping…  the pain level drops

I am hearing…  Guardians 2 and dog looking for rat

Around the house… 2 dogs and boy and husband

One of my favorite things… Thanksgiving

A few plans for the rest of the week…

1.  Look for power points about essays

2.  Watch A. Malcolm again

3.  Endure the heat and wind

Here is a picture for thought I am sharing: