Still waiting

I think maybe if I keep looking at fall pictures, fall will come. The leaves will fall off the trees, the drizzle will be here in the mornings and cooler temps will prevail. Okay, so I can wish can't I?



Yesterday I took the time to fill out FAFSA for me and I gave all the information to the child to submit hers. I also applied for another loan, about $8000 to go to school this fall. I probably won't get it, my credit sucks big time. But you never know, maybe I'll have to have a high interest rate, but still be able to get the $ for school. I'd share it with the kid if I had to. Her books are astronomical. But then mine won't be cheap either. I'd also hope that if I get a decent amount, I can get a external hard drive and another battery for the beast. That way I can get a lot of stuff off of here and make folders that I can access on the external. I can get a 500G which is bigger than this for a decent price at the Apple Store or online at Apple.com.
Would be handy.



Last night I got a phone call. Go outside and look to the NW. You can see the space station and the shuttle going over. I went out and saw only a few planes. A few minutes later another call, it has just gone over us at the beach, go out side. So I did, I went out and looked up over the roof and there were 2 lights moving. 1 large and 1 small. It was the space shuttle and the ISS flying overhead. What a marvelous sight.
What a piece of work is a man, how noble in reason, how
infinite in faculties, in form and moving how express and
admirable, in action how like an angel, in apprehension how like
a god! the beauty of the world, the paragon of animals—and yet,
to me, what is this quintessence of dust? Man delights not me—
nor woman neither, though by your smiling you seem to say so.

The new Beatles Rock Band has been released today. What a treat. But it's not cheap and it looks like today, most places are sold out. The remastered albums came out too. I'd love to have them. Everything old is new again.



Well that seems to be all that is on my mind. Healthcare address tonight, I don't know if I will watch. After all that brouhaha about the education speech, and I find out reading other blogs that it was okay for students to watch news about the MJ funeral and not the president, I wonder where our priorities lie.

That's all.
da bunny

Sunday Musings on God, mass, and singing....

The Discovery Channel has been on all afternoon. Planet Earth is on now. The photography on that series is wonderful. You get to see so many things that only God could have created.
nb: When I get to heaven, 2 things I have to ask God:

1. Why are avocado pits so big?



2. What were you doing when you created the platypus---was it a joke?


Anyway, I downloaded some Bible Studies from the ELCA website so I can keep up with the lectionary for this stretch of the year. I'd like to get the new Lutheran Study Bible but it depends on what this next check looks like. In the meantime I have my New Oxford Annotated Bible which has been my trusty companion now for 9 years. I also have my Woman's Devotional Bible with devotions that I have had since 1995. Both are really good companions. I think that seeing different translations and views help us learn more about God's word. What you say? The bunny is talking about God!




Yep, and I even loaded 14 cds in the Sanctus series on my Itunes, to listen to wonderful choirs sing the masses. Of course some of these existed before the Restoration to all your KJV people, but they carry the full liturgical value of the service that Christians celebrated then. Because they honor Christ and his sacrifice and through the gift of faith which is fully given, we are free in Jesus.



And, btw, I am sitting here in shorts and a sleeveless shirt because it's miserably hot in this office and I can. Flip flops too in case there is someone who is bothered by my bare toes. I'd wear a skirt if I had to but I am much more comfy right now. And I even have a bathing suit to wear in my spa, though I've been know not to. (Blinded eyes I know).


For those who haven't met me, I am a midwestern Lutheran transplanted to southern California. Mother of 2 adult children, 1 in college, 1 works full time. Neither can afford to move out. Right now on total disability due to a nasty work injury, married to a flawed but loving man for nearly 24 years. Have belonged to the same church for over 40 years. Believe in God. Jesus is my savior and with him brought the new rules into play. I was married in a religious ceremony by a woman minister, does that make it any less binding?



Well anyway, the back yard is being weedwhacked so I think I will watch the space shuttle for a while. And calm the dog.

Peace and out.
da bunny

Just a short comment about the presidents speech to schoolkids

"The goal of the speech and the lesson plans is to challenge students to work hard in school, to not drop out and to meet short-term goals like behaving in class, doing their homework and goals that parents and teachers alike can agree are noble," a White House spokesman tells ABC News, "This isn't a policy speech. This is a speech designed to encourage kids to stay in school."

Tom Vieter, The White House,
Wow that is so, gee, what can I call it===SUBVERSIVE, SOCIALIST, UNAMERICAN---
WAKE UP PEOPLE, DO YOU WANT ANOTHER GENERATION OF IDIOTS ?

I have calmed down

Well I have calmed down some from yesterday but I still am pissed off about those comments. It takes an awful lot to get me riled, but then I hang on to it. I hope that I can carry on a calm and rational conversation with people without it disintegrating into a shouting match.


I just went outside to let the dog visit his girlfriend. The neighbors said that the little white mutt who lives down the street was over the door trying to get in our house (there's a steel door-might be hard,eh?). That dog runs all over. Ours got loose the other day and I had to walk 2 blocks to get him. Not good for the foot.




I am waiting for my new operating system, but being the dummy that I am, I didn't closely look at the shipping instructions and it is being delivered to our old address. I called our old landlord and asked him to ask his tenant to accept it and give it to him. He'll call me when it gets there and we'll go over and pick it up. DUMB. ME.



I have to take the jump and call Salie Mae and a couple of other lenders to see if I can get a career change loan so i can take the paralegal course. If I enroll I am committed to see it to the end. That is on my list of things to do. Prayers are requested.




I have my PT set up through November. 1 day a week. The newest exercises make me look like a beached vulture. LOL. Laying on a yoga ball with my arms outstretched moving them back and forth.....Horrible visual.




I want to get Chess the Musical, the PBS special to watch. It's got Josh Groban, Adrian Pascal, and Idina Menzel. It's soo good. I love to listen to
Anthem:

No man, no madness
Though their sad power may prevail
Can possess, conquer, my country's heart

They rise to fail
She is eternal
Long before nations' lines were drawn
When no flags flew when no armies stood
My land was born

And you ask me why I love her
Through wars, death and despair
She is the constant
We who don't care
And you wonder will I leave her - but how?
I cross over boarders but I'm still there now

How can I leave her?
Where would I start?
Let man's petty nations tear themselves apart
My land's only boarders lie
Around my heart



One Night in Bangkok

English Portuguese Spanish German French Italian Greek Dutch Russian to Spanish English German Portuguese French Italian Greek Dutch Russian BabelFish translate Ask community for help cl [THE AMERICAN] Bangkok, Oriental setting And the city don't know that the city is getting The creme de la creme of the chess world in a Show with everything but Yul Brynner Time flies -- doesn't seem a minute Since the Tirolean spa had the chess boys in it All change -- don't you know that when you Play at this level there's no ordinary venue It's Iceland -- or the Philippines -- or Hastings -- or -- or this place! [COMPANY] One night in Bangkok and the world's your oyster The bars are temples but the pearls ain't free You'll find a god in every golden cloister And if you're lucky then the god's a she I can feel an angel sliding up to me [THE AMERICAN] One town's very like another When your head's down over your pieces, brother [COMPANY] It's a drag, it's a bore, it's really such a pity To be looking at the board, not looking at the city [THE AMERICAN] Whaddya mean? Ya seen one crowded, polluted, stinking town -- [COMPANY] Tea, girls, warm, sweet Some are set up in the Somerset Maugham suite [THE AMERICAN] Get Thai'd! You're talking to a tourist Whose every move's among the purest I get my kicks above the waistline, sunshine [COMPANY] One night in Bangkok makes a hard man humble Not much between despair and ecstasy One night in Bangkok and the tough guys tumble Can't be too careful with your company I can feel the devil walking next to me [THE AMERICAN] Siam's gonna be the witness To the ultimate test of cerebral fitness This grips me more than would a Muddy old river or reclining Buddha And thank God I'm only watching the game -- controlling it -- I don't see you guys rating The kind of mate I'm contemplating I'd let you watch, I would invite you But the queens we use would not excite you So you better go back to your bars, your temples, your massage parlours -- [COMPANY] One night in Bangkok and the world's your oyster The bars are temples but the pearls ain't free You'll find a god in every golden cloister A little flesh, a little history I can feel an angel sliding up to me One night in Bangkok makes a hard man humble Not much between despair and ecstasy One night in Bangkok and the tough guys tumble Can't be too careful with your company I can feel the devil walking next to me

and
Nobody's On Nobody's Side


What's going on around me
Is barely making sense
I need some explanations fast
I see my present partner
In the imperfect tense
And I don't see how we can last
I feel I need a change of cast
Maybe I'm on nobody's side.

And when he gives me reasons
To justify each move
They're getting harder to believe
I know this can't continue
I've still a lot to prove
There must be more I could achieve
But I don't have the nerve to leave.

Everybody's playing the game
But nobody's rules are the same
Nobody's on nobody's side
Better learn to go it alone
Recognize you're out on your own
Nobody's on nobody's side.

The one I should not think of
Keeps rolling through my mind
And I don't want to let that go
No lovers ever faithful
No contract truly signed
There's nothing certain left to know
And how the cracks begin to show!

Never make a promise or plan
Take a little love where you can
Nobody's on nobody's side
Never stay too long in your bed
Never lose your heart, use your head
Nobody's on nobody's side.

Never take a stranger's advice
Never let a friend fool you twice
Nobody's on nobody's side
Never be the first to believe
Never be the last to deceive
Nobody's on nobody's side
And never leave a moment too soon
Never waste a hot afternoon
Nobody's on nobody's side
Never stay a minute too long
Don't forget the best will go wrong
Nobody's on nobody's side.

Better learn to go it alone
Recognize you're out on your own
Nobody's on nobody's side.



Well enough of all that. Rick Sanchez is skewering Chris Brown. What an ass Brown is.

da bunny

I read a post today-- a small rant.

at a place called Carepages where a person went on a rant as to how dare the president of these Youknighted States dare take precious edjucational time to address elementary school students and indoctrinate them in the communist way.

This person who I used to think was fairly intelligent, who lost a child to brain cancer and had the best health care money could buy for her deathly ill child (who also took pictures of said deathly ill child and posted them on the webpage-perhaps they thought they were honoring her, but it was creepy to see the child who had deteriorated to an awful state ) was crucifying the president for health care changes.

And how dare they change the name on 9-11 from Patriot Day to a service day. I asked her if she remembered President Kennedy and the ask not what your country can do for you but what you can do for your country, was he a communist? Is wanting children to take pride in their country and help someone else being a communist? I don't think so.

She said she would entertain opposite opinions but would tell you now that ALL of her readers believed the same as her. I sent her message as a private option and removed myself from the email list. I told her I wasn't going to fight about it as I was too old to get into a shouting match, but we are involved in a war we never should have gotten into because of her adored president GWB and how many thousand young men and women will never again come home to their families. Funny how they forget the freedoms like the oblivion of the 4th amendment, freedoim from warrant less search and seizure, and wiretap that were basically erased with the patriot act. I asked her if the health care they had should not be available for all sick children in the country and if families who couldn't afford the same quality of care be turned away and let their children suffer and have the family go bankrupt paying hospital bills?

It irritates me that people are so blind. After being led down the path blindfolded, we still can't see we were screwed and no one even said thank you. All I can say for the years from 2001-2008 is that there was an awful lot of evil masquerading as security and protection. Let's consider every brown person with a foreign name a terrorist but throw in granny and the baby so we aren't profiling at the airport.

But then these are my opinions and no one elses. That's the beauty of free speech. You can say what you want and if someone doesn't like it, so what. We are guaranteed that right in the 1st Amendment. Those old guys in wigs must be rolling over at what a mockery the law has become.

Ok. I am done. I just had to blow that out of my mind.

da bunny

Let's cheer for restrictions

Doc is writing restrictions. Doubt if the agency can accommodate. I won't say a word. See the other doc and have lots to say to him.




Can we say morons in public? Asinine, idiotic, and non coherent rules that aren't the same in every building at the same location. Crowing cocks who think that a piece of tin makes them omnipotent. And when discrepancies are pointed out, people are treated like pariahs. This is not a thinking persons job. More like lobotomized sheep (apologies to the sheep). Rant over.



I need to get out of town and fly somewhere. MSP is calling me. CWA is calling me. It's at this time of year, nearing the anniversary of my dad's death that I want to go home. Even if it's just to sit on the grass by the grave and have a talk with him. It's been 45 years. There's alot to discuss.
And to see the farms, the cows and the rolling land that makes up the place I was born.



The fire last night in Rancho Palos Verdes has a suspicious start. Last night there were clouds from the fire. The fires in the foothills are just as bad if not worse. Hard to breathe in the morning. Don't like that. Prayers for the fire fighters.



That's it for tonight.
da bunny

when did i break that mirror?

There are days that aren't worth getting up. Nasty smartass spoiled kids. Idiot spouses. I find out that we may have to choose bankruptcy again because the credit card companys don't want to negotiate and accept our lower payments. So now if we file again, my job is at risk, his possible new job is at risk, and they get nothing. I absolutely hate this. But then again, he's making 1/2 of what he made before we got into trouble.



But everyday the sun comes up and we do what we can.

I am in miserable pain. Time to take a shower and put some ice on my foot. Yep the foot really hurts again.



later.
i am in a crap mood.
da bunny

Sunday Night Football!

I don't even have to have sound on, just the sight of the teams on the field makes me happy. The Titans are ahead in the 4th quarter so unless the Bills pull something out of their hats, the Titans will cruise through this one.




Wish we'd get some rain. I watered the patio today and tomorrow night will do the front one. I do the lawn every 4 days or so. We just need a gully washer and then the air would clean up too.
It would be nice to sit in the living room and watch the sky light up!




Spent part of this afternoon watching some of the ball room dances from So You Think You Can Dance. I love ball room dancing, especially the Latin Dances. I can't dance worth anything, thank God when I was out dancing all we did was jump around and look silly. I can dance a slow waltz and a polka though. When I was a kid in grade school, during the winter, we'd learn to do the Reels, Schottische, American and European Folk Dancing. It was all part of the curriculum. And it was so fun. I have a lot of fun memories of grade school.

Wow the Bills have scored. Fun. Fun. Fun.

Packers start regular season against the Bears. Go Packers!



Even went down to the Esplanade the other night to see the ocean. It was lovely, the cloud bank hanging over the hill was something else.




Night all,


da bunny

To my single follower--- who are you? Leave a message???

Finally got some news

So the case manager nurse calls me and says the agency I work for cannot accommodate my restrictions at this time. So I have to wait until I see both the doctors at the end of the month. At least I know what is going on.

Tried to call HR at the agency and got voice mail. Tried to email the contact and her inbox is full and is bouncing mail back. That is real professional. So I sent a fax. I hope I get some answer.




BBQed and didn't wait for the buns to get here and the #1 child was really rude. I may not tell him when his dad gets home. He knows better than to smart off to me.



Well that felt better.
later.

verrah interesting......

I talked to my PT yesterday and she was flabbergasted that the dr released me. She said " You are no where close to where you need to be". If so, then why wasn't there a consultation. Why didn't the Dr read the PT appraisal, why wasn't there communication?


In the meantime, the trash has been paid, but the wonderful company that provides it, even though they had a weeks lead time can't guarantee that my rollaways will be here by tomorrow. Sheesh. So I had to get them to allow the truck to pick up all the bags that we put out. They stopped billing us and it just got out of sight and out of mind. I asked them why they didn't send us our bills, and they said they figured we were gone???? Allied/ Consolidated Waste is the only game in town, unlike when we lived on the other side of the street in the LA County area. Oh well, it's done and taken care of.



We bbqed the other night. Made Santa Maria style tritip. It was so good. That and sauteed fresh tomatos, sliced mushrooms with Yoshida sauce and potatoes and onions. It was so good. Tomorrow night is bratwurst, fried taters and baked beans. I'll set up the charcoal when I find out what time the husband is coming home, the brats will be parboiled and they will cook so fast. I can put the potatoes on an hour early and they can cook so the brats will go fast. Nothing like beer poached bratwurst. Good whole home cooked food.


Am seriously considering taking an online paralegal course through the alma mater. Did I say that the other day? I don't know. Would have to get some more student loans. I think it would be a good thing. It's something I always wanted to pursue but when I was young, I was thoroughly discouraged to do that. It would be a way out of what i am doing. I am praying about it.



So I am done for tonight. Shark Week awaits.



Later kiddos.