Back in one piece

Well we made it to the river about 2245 on Friday night and it was still a balmy 100º outside. Thank goodness for a faithful air conditioner which worked superbly the entire weekend. I got some time in the pool, some time at a slot machine that liked me and some time at the outlet mall. What more could you ask for your birthday?

 Ironically the red dot on the above picture is showing where our room was on the 2nd floor. 

 The pool was very nice, except for kids. Older I get the more I like adult only times. 

This was from the riverwalk. Right below is where the jet ski rental is and a bit further to the left is the sandy beach where people are there at 7am setting up screened rooms and shade for them selves. Not a bit of sand is free for laying out and getting sun. Have to squeeze by to get into the river. 

It was 115 on Saturday. Way warm. We left Sunday morning and the closer it got to home the more humid it was. Now it's 75º and 64% humidity. I can deal. 

Peace from the bunny. This is what we need, a lot of this. 

Off We Go

Waiitng on the husband to get home so we can throw the stuff in the car and head off for the Colorado River. Except for the food and munchies, I'm ready. We can do that together when he gets home. I'm not worried about getting there late. The reservation is paid for. Have a 2015 Passat to drive.

Have a wonderful weekend, keep your chin above water and your smile on your face.

da bunny

Ouch Ouch Ouch

I have severe arthritis and tendonitis of my left thumb. My mom has the exact same thing. Today I went to the doc at 1115 and had 3 shots into the fleshy area above the tendons. The pain is wild. It goes all the way up to my shoulder. I am having an awful time typing with one hand but if I don't use the thumb I can do it. OUCH~~~~~

Then I'm getting attacked on PM's on FB by my brother and his wife who seem to have intimate knowledge of my relationship with my 90 year old mother. They live 1800 miles away from her, I live 4 miles from her. After I called my mom and told her what viciousness had been written she got very upset. The next evening as I was checking my mail, I got another PM that called me a tattle tale. I didn't respond to either.

 But my daughter in Chicago and my niece who lives with my Mom got pissed. They took it upon them selves to write an email to my brother and sister in law and set them straight. This is the letter with names redacted:

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Redacted

I have sat by and watched you mistreat my family from your high horse for years and I absolutely cannot stay silent anymore. 

WE are here, and YOU are hundreds of miles away. You know absolutely NOTHING of what you are talking about. 

The fact that you and XXXXX have the audacity to send such a horrible message to XXX on a day that she is celebrating the legacy of her father is repulsive to say the least. 

I intend to clear some things up for you right now since it's apparently very hard for you to find out the entire truth before you pass judgement. 

1. Years ago when XXXX lost his job at the airport Grandma felt so bad for him (because she loves him, this may be a hard concept for you to grasp but please try) that she began giving him odd jobs around the house so she could give him some money without just giving him money. I just talked to her last night and this is her direct quote: "I started giving him money for helping me and I just continued doing it. I think that's my business." 

2. XXXX and XXX don't help her around the house and yard because I do. I do what she needs me to do. I do what she asks me to do. I ask her if she needs help. A lot of the time she declines my offer. Grandma is a strong woman even though she is 90 and she has told me countless times that if she doesn't continue to do things she will die. So I let her do what she still can and help her with what she can't. This does not mean that XXX andXXXX do not do anything for her because again you know only half the story. 

XXX

-helps grandma with her computer whenever she needs it

-takes her to costco and helps her shop

-drives her to her eye appointments

-comes over to help grandma with whatever she needs if i'm not available

XXXX

-brings grandma flowers

-takes grandma and XXX out to dinner (and pays!)

-makes beautiful woodworking projects for grandma upon request 

3. When we went to Solvang as a family. We all wanted to go. XXX offered to pay for lunch but grandma said she wanted to treat us. So we accepted that because doing things for her family makes her happy. 

That is the whole 100% truth and I know it because it's my LIFE. I live it. I know what goes on in this household and this side of the family. 

Let me just share a direct quote from grandma: "I love my family, all of you so dearly that this just TEARS me apart

You aren't the ones sitting up with grandma while she SOBS because she is so upset at how her family treats each other, I AM. 

IT'S ME WHO HAS TO WITNESS HER BREAKDOWNS EVERY TIME YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTHS. 

Your constant criticism of XXX and how she lives her life and raised her children is abhorrent. 

Criticizing XXX for going on a trip?

Be happy for her! Is that so hard? 

Telling XXX she isn't christian enough because she doesn't go to church?

Mind your own business. It's not that hard.

Calling XXXX  a roach?

Don't you EVER call her anything again. 

Telling XXXX that she is wasting her life?

Why? Because someone is living differently and handling things differently than you would? Please get over yourselves. You do not dictate the standards by which others live. 

Are you so unhappy, so miserable that you feel the need to bring everyone down around you? 

I have refrained from reaching out to either of you because you are so hateful, so wrathful and I just don't need that toxicity in my life. No one does. No one should have to put up with this. THIS is NOT how you treat FAMILY. 

Your behavior is embarrassing! It is cringeworthy! Do you think you're so high above us? So perfect? Look in a mirror and examine yourselves. 

You call yourselves christians? You have a lot to learn about love and acceptance.

Maybe you forgot but:

Judge not, that you be not judged.

Matthews 7:1

As of now there is no reply to that mail. As far as I am concerned, I'm done. My mom says it's ok not to like everything someone does but to attack them and be vicious is not allowed. I told her she could hit both of them with a 2x4 and I'd dig the hole for a new patio. Never in my life have I been attacked like that, even by enemies I've had. 

If you read her FB she's always touting the Bible and being a good Christian and praising God. She gets to hang out with a lot of my cousins, I don't because I live 1800 miles away. My brother has had me blocked on FB since he got on it. He is rude, condescending and an elder in their LCMS church. Great way to show the love of God and to love your family. The last time I visited, I was exhausted after leaving my daughter to start her new life in Chicago. We had driven from LA to Chicago and the stress about killed me. We got to their house and he was barely civil. I didn't ever bring up anything that was controversial, I was the good little visitor. Yet when I left I felt like I had been castigated up one side and down the other. I had to drive home to LA from MN trying to get myself back to normal. 

(Though I went into a deep depression after my daughter moved).

So that's it. My not so perfect life. This weekend I turn 62. The husband and I have rented a car, got a room on the river in Laughlin NV where it's 109 and I am going to burn them out of my head. I am going to have fun, wear a flirty dress and drink beer and dance. 

da bunny

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 86

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 86

By Amulbunny   

June 19,2015

Outside my window… 75, partly sunny, and breezy

I am thinking…  there aren’t enough tears for Mother Emmanuel AME

I am thankful for…  a perm that bleached the red out

From the learning rooms …  you have to be taught to hate

I can't believe . . that solstice is almost here

From the kitchen . . . beats me

I am wearing…  sleeveless blouse and capris

I am creating . . .I need room to create and no one seems to give a tinkers damn.

I am going…   to visit Dannens the new grocery store in the hood.

I am reading. . . some throwaway romance

I am hoping…  The Lake Fire gets contained soon.

I am hearing…  the squawk of the raptor 2 doors down

Around the house… 2 dogs and me, son

One of my favorite things… ice packs for my neck

A few plans for the rest of the week…

1.  Dr on Wednesday

2.  Steak for Father’s Day

3.  Pay some bills.

Here is a picture for thought I am sharing:

 This is what I had to guard 8 hours a day, to make sure no terrorists came up the stairs from baggage claim at LAX T7.Can't imagine that pulling the doors shut did any good 

for my injured shoulder. C.2003

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 85?

A Happy Woman's Life Book Page 85?

By Amulbunny   

June 10,2015

Outside my window… 70, muggy and slight breeze

I am thinking…  they can cook their own damn food

I am thankful for…  a hair appointment

From the learning rooms …  world religions

I can't believe . . how humid it was yesterday

From the kitchen . . . wonder if I can make lobster mac and cheese

I am wearing…  my summer jammers

I am creating . . .I have no idea

I am going…   to go to Solvang tomorrow with my mom, son, and niece

I am reading. . . Nora Roberts Night Moves

I am hoping…  we get some real rain here, not slop

I am hearing…  Channel 7 news at 11am

Around the house… 2 dogs and me, son

One of my favorite things… kindle fire tv

A few plans for the rest of the week…

1.  None

2.  None

3.  None

Here is a picture for thought I am sharing:

Can you tell the bunny’s having a bad day?

84º and Balmy

We're getting the remnants of a tropical storm and whoa is it humid. I expect to hear the pitter patter of rain drops soon, as per the radar.

I'm not having a good week. Hopefully my antidepressants will kick in and straighten out the brain chemicals. I didn't take them for 2 days.

My son was laid off and all the anger and rage has been directed at me. I remind him strongly that I am his mother and I will not be treated like that. He has issues and they need to be dealt with. And soon.

I would like to go away for my birthday but that is not going to happen. Cabin fever is not fun. My mother wants to go to Solvang on Thursday so that means driving up there, walking around for an hour or so and then coming home. Maybe stopping at the outlet mall in Camarillo. I don't know.

This is my life right now